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A Breath of the Past
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Its the morning after my birthday, the third day of a slow and swirly two-week summer escape from the mundane world with my sweetie, Saundra. Were tucking into a breakfast of homemade pancakes topped with bits of the sweetest pineapple ever tasted by humans and paging through the guest book in our little Princeville condo. Rain periodically pitters outside the windows. The ocean rolls below the bluffs. I note each odd-shaped breaker in hopes it might be a humpback whale.
Between bites weve been reading to each other from the floral-bound guest bookscomments and advice from over a decade of previous condo guests who had tried to pack a lifetime of island dreams into three days or had come to celebrate a romantic anniversary or honeymoon. I start reading an entry in purple ink dated New Years 1995 and am struck that I recognize the handwriting. I turn the page and yes, its signed Gail and Neal, Santa Cruz, California. I am suddenly and uncontrollably choked up.
I didnt know Gail and Neal had stayed here. In this very condo, that is. I mean, what are the odds of my finding the very same condo out of all the hundreds of rentals available on northshore Kauai? And it was Gail who was responsible for my first coming to Kauai. That is, her death was responsible.
Id been friends with Neal Hellman for nearly twenty years. He and I were professional musicians and had performed and recorded together many times. And he was one of my favorite people in the music biz. So I couldnt have been more delighted when, in about 1987, Neal found Gail. Gail Rich was a book editor, a local dramatics mover and shaker, a radio arts program host, and about the sweetest person who ever drew breath. Gail, too, became one of my favorite people.
They were made for each other. An ex-hippie Brooklyn cabbie folk musician and a fussy insatiable reader, each brimming with enthusiasm about their artistic loves and so mad about each other they almost always called each other Honey.
It wasnt until New Years 1995 that they managed to pry themselves loose from their work for their first real vacation together. Sensibly, they came to Kauai and immediately fell in love with Hanalei Bay. They rented a little condo in Princeville. They explored every beach, nosed into every restaurant, hiked the Na Pali trail, became unabashed lovers of the entire island.
Of course, they planned to return the following holiday season. Neal talked his teenaged son Shilo into coming, too, the next year, so they had to hunt up something a little biger than the Princeville condo. They rented a house in Hanalei a block off the beach and had even more fun on their second visit. Before leaving, they booked the place again for the next holiday seasonthree weeks it would be this time and no ShiloChristmas and New Yearsthe perfect romantic get-away and reward for working their tails off all year.
But the next year didnt work out the way any of us planned. I got hit first with what we came to refer to as Hell Year. My father died in February. And by the summer it became clear that my 20-year marriage was over. My wife finally left in October. Neal and Gail helped me stay sane through it all.
But my hell was nothing compared to Neals. He phoned early one November morning to tell me that Gail had gotten up in the middle of the night with a headache, got out of bed, and collapsed. Before the paramedics even arrived, she died in Neals arms of what turned out to be a brain aneurism. No warning. She was only 45.
Neal was nearly inconsolable. I joined with a good number of friends and watched him pretty much around the clock for a while until he could get any kind of grip. As he calmed down and we got to talking about everything and anything, he kept coming back to the plans he and Gail had to return to Hanalei. The tickets and house had been paid for for months. Now it was all up in smoke.